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♥ 10:42 PM

i've moved on.

♥ 10:42 PM

Life is so easy
when you are young.
When kisses heal boo-boos
and lullabies are sung.
It seemed that life could go on for years,
as long as the nightlight was there
to quiet our fears.
Why does growing up
have to be so hard?
When did the world become
bigger than our own back yard?
There is no more recess
to stop the stress of the school day.
There are no more falling stars
that can take our worries away.
Decisions are more complicated
now that we are grown,
why cant we go back
to when life was our own?

♥ 9:20 PM

KR STEPPERS TURNS FOUR!

being a noob at photoshop, i relied entirely on "Paint" and Microsoft word for the door gift! haha i googled for "CARTOON NETWORK" for the black and white cubes, hence the cartoon network-inspired looking design. Then i slowly used the paint brush to colour the C, A, R, T, O, O etc before copying and paste each alphabet K, R, S, T, E .....
give me A+ for effort please!

ok must give Billy A+ for effort too, cos he painstakingly did each certificate individually by blurring out the faces, and whatever other photoshop tools he used like shadowing etc!

• 09 Oct 2009, 18:00
• "Lets wait for Billy the Maria to come before we carry the food over to A blk"
• "Lets leave the balance for Weeps to bring over"
  
• "I cannot carry anything heavy cos my sports bra is too tight"

HAHAHAHA! what a bunch of lazy sluts. eh wait that's just Edward and I. haha anyway despite all the whining, we set up the place way before the freshies arrived (:





then dearest billy, our steppers comm maria started the fire, and prepared the food!



weeps and edward set up the laptop for videos, put up the banners, and decorated the place (well the tried to)



guess what i was doing?? admiring the sunset (:
HAHA Kidding, i went down to the kitchen to heat up the food!



and i helped billy out for a tiny little while!



Here are random photos taken during the party:





vodka jelly, super nice!!!!! (:

thanks beng for the vodka!(:




check out my ugly face! hahaha












HAPPY 4TH BIRTHDAY STEPPERS!





steppers comm 0910



















white chocolate macadamia! took the pretty flowers for myself! :D

• We were watching our cheerobics video and Wei Li said, "Look at that aunty clapping (at the corner of the video)! Damn enthu". Guess what? She's my grandmother, sitting right in front, always there to support me no matter what. I love her so much (:

then came my favouriteeeee (:














after the party was over. i had a super long msn conversation with jon the wierdo.

• mel says:
  ok
  some more?
  [C-onnyaku] Magpie+ says:
  ur thinkless
  mel says:
  hahahahha
  i think its the vodka
  im gonna get hangover
  [C-onnyaku] Magpie+ says:
  when u do layout u try to get ur body to hang over
  
  

♥ 1:10 AM

can't wait for the weekend. i really need a break.
a break to catch up with my work, projects, webcasts, tutorials and whatever i'm lagging behind in.
a whole load of it actually.
no pun intended about the "break".

8 Oct 2009.

♥ 2:25 AM

when i hand in my AIS project on Fri, i'm gonna be so damn relieved.
a huge chunk off my chest, for good.

e-learning week sucks.
i'm subletting my life to project meetings and steppers trainings.
life sucks.
this is no life.

i wish i wasn't in this.

♥ 12:16 AM

my sister's third birthday is finally over (:
these were pictures of her first birthday, when she was still a baby!
when (and if) i get hold of pictures of her most recent birthday celebration, i'll post it up (:


those were the times you lifted me off the ground and swung me round and round.
i was still a little girl.

♥ 2:00 AM

On this day of your life, Melissa, we believe God wants you to know ... that every little part of you is magical.
	Yes, even the parts that hurt, even the ones that are feeling disease right now. It's alright to love what is in pain. More than alright, that's exactly where your love is needed the most. So why not touch that part that hurts and smile at it, at yourself through it, and whisper: ''I love you.''

♥ 7:21 PM

I really regret rejecting my SEP offer to University of Washington! I can't wait for the next round of applications to open, I've been checking my emails everyday but so far only internal exchange to SMU/NTU! boringgggg :( i wanna go overseas!! everyone says that when you go for exchange you don't wanna come back! HAHA (:

Midterms are OFFICIALLY over, i'm soooo damn relieved. (:
Thank God for helping me through it! (:(:

Many project deadlines to meet in the coming weeks, so yes please say hello to more stress!!
but i must say i quite like my project group mates this semester! they're all different people, with really diverse backgrounds! (: mostly people i've worked with for the first time!!!

i used to think working with people i'm familiar with is always the safest and best option, but no they will NEVER out-perform and there's so little to learn from the same old group of people!
working with friends breeds a tendency for one to digress a lot, lose focus, get easily distracted, and get highly complacent. they tend to take things for granted, and fail to explore possibilities beyond what they think is possible.

on the other hand, groups that work well are usually never consciously planned, because uhmmm, they just happen-- they suddenly "evolve" into a lively, high-achieving, dedicated group which is turned on by challenges and competition. I'm not assuming here, that every group of acquainted individuals will produce itself into an awesome team. In fact, the potential conflicts that arise from the intensity of a new experience could be a possible downturn. At the beginning, when individuals come together, it may be difficult to encourage communication, coupled with low morale and motivation, that group may never perform if it doesn't get through that stage. BUT COME ON, it's NUS and everyone here works at such an incredible pace, acquainting one self is done quickly and the project is started almost immediately after the group is formed. We get to know each other simultaneously while working together. and before we know it, we become a high-performing team! (:

anyway, no i'm not concluding that my project teams are high performers. but i think there's some possibility for us to be FANTASTIC (:

lets see how things go.

Fri 9/10- AIS Project Deadline (25%)
Tue 13/10- Biz Comm OP Evaluation
Fri 16/10- Oral Presentation of Report for Biz Comm (15%)
Tue 20/10- Executive Summary and Report due (30%)
Fri- 23/10- Finance Quiz 2 (5%)
Mon- 26/10- Project Presentation and Written Report deadline for Cities in Transition (25%)
Tue- 3/11- Letter Writting Test (20%)
Mon- 9/11- MIS Individual term paper (15%)
Tue-10/11- Oral Presentation and Report due for Organisational Behaviour (40%)
Tue-10/11- OB Reflection Paper (20%)
Fri -13/11-Finance Quiz 3 (5%)

Sat-21/11- AIS EXAM
Tue-24/11- Finance EXAM
Mon-30/11- Cities in Transition EXAM

EXCITING EXCITING EXCITING!!!!! (:

after that, i'll be free like a bird! i can't wait.

♥ 6:02 PM

JOY JOY AND KOR KOR JED LEFT FOR USA LAST WEEKEND!
not for their honeymoon, but to pursue her studies in law for joy, and an overseas work trip for jed! (:



all the girl cousins (: BEST!!!



damn pretty background!


many many people to send them off!







i'm gonna miss joy joy :(

♥ 1:24 AM

my all time favourite (:

finance mid terms tomorrow. not absolutely prepared but i'm just going to do my best and trust that God will do the rest!! not studying as hard as others, but i must admit i tried to be pretty consistent- in completing my tutorials as they fall due, attending all my lectures, and webcasting immediately the day after (if i happen to miss class).

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KAYE KAYE (: you're the sweetest thing of all!

♥ 1:44 AM

pardon for my laggyness but here's an update of my dad's birthday celebrations about a month ago! (:

♥ 2:41 PM

i feel like the most horrible thing on earth now :(

super tired
bad headache
insomnia

♥ 4:00 AM

AIS tutorial not done.
haven't finished studying for finance mid terms
8am class tomorrow
peer evaluation for report not finalized


i wanna scream.
but i think i'm too tired to do so.

♥ 3:03 AM

time flies?


SPOT ME!


maris stella taught us- "to love through love, to love through care"

♥ 1:26 AM

when the going gets tough, the tough goes shopping
online shopping (:

online shopping makes me so happy!! i can still remember how badly i was craving to shop/get out of campus last May during the exam period. feel the same urge and craving right now! :/ (but its not the exam period yet!!)
someone got me a pair of earings and fried mars bars with melted ice cream in an attempt to make me concentrate on studying!! (:(: LOVEES IT LA! (:
yay i always go back to times like these when i'm down to cheer myself up and make me realize what a lucky girl i am!! (:

tomorrow is WEDNESDAY again :(
i always don't have any time for lunch on Wednesdays cos they're filled with project meetings one after another! hope my lucky star will pop by the brown benches with a sandwich again (okay i hope you see this, i'm sick of sandwiches! could you get me something else instead? hahaha kidding)
i have so many project meetings, i hardly have any time left for my own self revision :(
GO ME! one last mid term before i go full force into my proj work!


you only treasure what you don't have, you'll never treasure what you have.
if its something you want very badly, you'll do anything for it.
but once you've gotten it, you simply take everything for granted
...and... i think that is the saddest part of it all.

♥ 1:21 AM

Draw me close to You
Never let me go
I lay it all down again
To hear You say that I'm Your friend

You are my desire
No one else will do
'Cause nothing else could take Your place
To feel the warmth of Your embrace
Help me find the way
Bring me back to You

You're all I want
You're all I've ever needed
You're all I want
Help me know You are near

♥ 11:26 AM

i got a mid term tomorrow and i can't get myself to bed although the weather is so nice!
i feel as if i've finished studying already, but obviously there's no such thing as "finish" when it comes to studying.
i'm just giving myself excuses to stop studying.
but well, i don't really care!!

i'm quite hungry now, i wish i went for supper with edward just now! :(
omg love spending time with them cos they always make so super happy and our conversations are always super duper engaging! HAHA!

ok i better publish this senseless entry before my internet connection dies on me again!
i feel lost and helpless without the internet.
i can't sleep, i finished 3 chapters of my story book already, 2 chapters to go and i finish the book but i wanna save it for another day!

GOOD LUCK EVERYONE TAKING THEIR MID TERMS! :)

♥ 2:19 AM

I don't wanna runaway
I don't wanna be alone
Baby no promises

♥ 11:42 PM

I'm so relieved that it's the end of the very first STEPPERS (THAI) CAMP, but that also signifies the nearing end of my mid term break.
yesterday evening was spent celebrating Edward (and Deo's belated) birthday at FISH AND CO (:
anyway, the camp in general was just okay, i'm just relieved that we managed to accomplish what we had planned to do! (:
maybe just one line to sum it all: the opposite of dissatisfaction is not satisfaction but just no dissatisfaction.

going off to the airport T2 now for a family dinner at Soup Restaurant and then bid farewell to my cousin, Joy.

♥ 5:39 PM

i was looking at my archives- aug 2008 and sep 2008.
it's pretty interesting how i started university life by being part of business rag dance (where i had absolutely no idea what i was getting myself into, but its okay i made really good friends)






and pageant of cos (yet another fantastic experience).






i can still recall every single weekend that i always look forward so much to! like just to get away from my books and take a nice breather before the hectic week starts all over again, and not to forget the endless activities that i would eagerly anticipate like even simple performances by steppers (high school musical etc), hall dnd whatever! omg those were the days of being a freshie!
we even had dress codes for lecture (like pretty in pink day!)



i was trying to justify with myself how and why i managed to become so ugly:(
like omg my pageant photos were so pretty flawless and all nice but today i'm looking like some horrible thing with big fugly panda eyebags, a washed-out shagged-till-wanna-die face, unkempt hair, fat ugly body, super un-toned muscles etc!
i don't wanna look in the mirror because i don't want to face the ugly reality.

previously, i used to indulge myself sinfully in anything i love eating. (maybe cause i went out soo frequently on lunch and dinner dates!!! too frequent for my own good! haha!) i guess i'm doing less and less of that these days and i can't help it but i think twice/trice/quadruple times before i put something in my mouth.
i bet i would never ever scoop out the oil from the soup last time. i don't know why i'm so paranoid at it now :(
i really don't know what has brought about this change but i'm not hypothesizing that it's for the better/worse.
the super oily chicken wings, spicy curry chicken, char kuay teow, laksa, nasi lemak etc.
i really seriously can't remember the last time i ate those! :( used to have it after every single training back in JC!! (i actually kinda miss it!!)
sometimes i admit i do give in to it but most of the time i still try to hold back.

its amusing how i also used to dislike people who were caught up in their mini/humongous (or-so-they think) rat race that they forget everyone else and everything around them.
its quite sad that i'm slowly becoming like one of them.
don't really bother hyping myself up and making myself look forward to things (although i try to sometimes. but well, epic fail). life is becoming less meaningful, no wait, more meaningless.
all i do is think about my books, my tests, my projects, my work! i'm just so engrossed in catching up and keeping the pace, i forget why i'm working so hard in the first place.
i used to be enticed by simple little things but i don't find myself enticed the same way anymore.
steppers trainings has been steppers trainings and are just trainings as it is, spending time with my loved ones are sometimes taken for granted, i question myself why i'm spending time with them in the first place at times.
and when i'm alone again, i just wanna coup myself up and bury myself in my books because i see not much point in anything.
but yet, the amount of motivation i have to work is astonishingly little.

okay, here's the end of my pointless entry, but it somewhat encapsulates whatever that has been running through my mind from time to time.

and after all that we've been through, our journey has only just begun

♥ 1:03 AM

i realize i shop online so much these days, even more than i actually facebook!
anyway, i'm quite happy that i've read through all my notes for CIT and OB!
now its down to memorizing stuff, the part i dread most.
guess i'm gonna procrastinate and start cramming everything on saturday or sunday only!

i was looking forward to thai camp, now i'm almost dreading it.
okay, i'm confused.

♥ 1:50 AM

aren't we all similar in trying to be different?

♥ 5:28 PM

useless, just so useless.

♥ 2:03 AM